From Betrayal to Relief: Loving True Father Honestly

Thank you so much for the lectures.

One big emotion I felt was shock. I was always naive and believed what I was told about True Parents [Holy Mother Han and Reverend Moon]. When people I was witnessing to questioned me about controversies surrounding True Father [Reverend Moon], I always defended him. I believed the rumors were false — so I was hurt and felt a sense of betrayal when I learned they were true.

But more than that, I finally feel like I can see the magnitude of what True Mother [Holy Mother Han] went through. I once told someone close to me that I didn't think I could ever forgive certain things — that I would be too hurt. But True Mother [Holy Mother Han] forgave. Not only that, but she loved and united and continued leading a global movement. That, as Dr. Chang said, is not humanly possible. It is unimaginable. And it has made True Mother's [Holy Mother Han's] identity and proclamation so much more real to me. I never doubted it, but it is so much clearer now. I have a greater gratitude, love, and respect for her than ever before. She is the role model I want to follow.

Every day this past week, I thought about what I heard. I started remembering the unanswered questions I had pushed to the back of my heart, and the anxiety I used to feel when people would challenge me. I used to be so afraid. But now I don't feel afraid or anxious. Actually, I feel a sense of relief — relief that I can love True Father [Reverend Moon] for the life he truly led and speak honestly about it.

Thank you for bringing light to this truth.

— A.H.