Speak, Speak — That's the Only Way They Will Know

I believe I had the following dream because I was deeply troubled about the leadership I was working under. I was furious and couldn't understand why Holy Mother Han had chosen certain individuals to represent her. At the prayer hall, as I looked up at Holy Mother Han's picture, I shared my frustrations with her. Her response was simple but profound: "Endure." She said it in a very stern voice.

That night, I dreamt I was standing about a meter away from Holy Mother Han. She appeared natural, without makeup, wearing a beige new-age hanbok made of gauze-like linen. She was scolding me firmly, saying "Speak, Speak—that's the only way they will know!" As she rose from her chair and walked toward me, she lost her balance. I caught her, and as I did, her top shifted upward. I noticed her back and belly were covered with black dots— markings I recognized. I felt the physical weight of her body, her arms in mine as I steadied her. I helped her sit on a step so I could assist her with her grey, leather-strapped shoes. Then Holy Mother Han stood up and walked away.

In the following week, I took Holy Mother Han’s advice; I began speaking up at work about various concerns, which led to some positive changes. I realized that it did not matter who Holy Mother Han chose. We were all brothers and sisters, and we needed to work out our problems. The only way to do that was to communicate, to speak!

I couldn't forget the black dots I had seen on her body. I reached out to True Parents' granddaughter to ask if Holy Mother Han used the ‘Happy Health’ machine, a positive-negative ionizer that helps with circulation. She confirmed that Holy Mother Han used it all over her body due to circulation issues from her four cesarean sections. I was amazed that my dream had revealed such specific details about Holy Mother Han's health condition— I had physically held her and felt her presence.

This experience helped me realize that my dreams were a genuine way to connect with and understand Holy Mother Han's physical situation. More importantly, it led me to repent for my immature heart. Despite being taught the values of loving and giving first, I had failed to practice them. I realized Holy Mother Han was working patiently with those of us who still had much to learn, myself included.